Sugary Goodness

2010-12-04T20:08:00.001-08:00

Gooooood afternoon, people!

Ah. it has been cold these days even though the sun is shining brightly, especially at night.
I went out with Cheryl yesterday! We went to Bugis to catch a movie, Rapunzel (I swear I loved the horse's facial expressions) and went to eat Ebi Shoutengai (I think i misspelled the name of the restaurant). The food there is great and affordable, however they give pretty large portion.

And cheryl has a hard time chewing her meat.
Before the movie, we went to buy Coffee bean~ I was mesmerized by the male cashier. HAHA!
As usual, Cheryl was too infatuated with her Ryan and thus didn't notice the guy. :(

I ended up buying Rakion cash again. Argh. But hopefully I'll get good items in tomorrow's event.

AND IM REALLY HAPPY! I BOUGHT YUI'S RAIN SINGLE YESTERDAY. :)

2010-11-09T09:01:00.000-08:00

Working life is really stressful, constantly worrying about making mistakes, arriving on time, doing it correctly, and stuff.
Hopefully I won't make any mistakes tomorrow. Wish me luck!

2010-10-28T04:42:00.000-07:00

I realized my jokes are so freaking sick. LOL.
-cough-

I was enjoying myself on Twitter, spamming the trend #theGazettE and #HBDKaitheGazettE.
Yeah~ I hope Kai loves our birthday present sent to him from me, Grace and Jean!

Oh lala~

2010-10-26T20:00:00.001-07:00

Just a fan.

Just a fan.

Just a fan.

Just a fan.

Just nice I'm listening to 'Crying Rain - Girugamesh' LOLOLOL.
It's like my song list knows what I'm feeling, and plays the song. LOLOLOL. Ok...... so later....

Ah, that's why I hate having obsessed and this feeling of possessive-ness over groups which I like their looks more and not their songs. LuckyI tried my best to stop this obsession, if not the amount of depression I feel know is a thousand times more.

Luckily, I don't like GazettE that way. As I imagine them having a wife and girlfriend now, I truly felt happy for them, as I know they'll experience more emotions and compose them into a song which all of us fans can enjoy.

I feel like, God is trying to lead me to the correct way, and try to warn me about the bad incidents that is going to happen ahead, by preventing me and 'telling' me to stop.

Like how I was obsessed with boy group bands the last time. Suddenly, I have this urge to stop. I'm so glad that it happened.

All I know that I'm always first and Him and he'll always love me, that's all I need to know.

Thank you, Lord.

2010-10-25T01:02:00.000-07:00

4 months, babe! To my MacBook! Oh yes! If the job is good most probably im
Continuing with the job.

I cant wait to start and end it quickly, so that I can earn the income for my new precious macbook! If I managed to get one MacBook, I'm gonna carress it everyday and molest it. LOLOLOL

So far I've been managing well with the obsession! Didn't went to check the news updates! Although sometimes I was tempted to check, and with Peiyi spazzing to me about SHINee stuff, it's hard
To control. Luckily I kept thinking about my れいた and my dearest ルキ..

I was mesmerized by this actor, named しょうごさかもと。 he's only 1 year older than me! He's really cute and innocent type. Oh my.. Feel like pinching his cheeks!

You guys should watch hammer session drama. It makes you think back about your daily life principles. It made me reflect on human morals. And what wrong I used to do the last time.

Oh I can't wait~ my MacBook! Hehehehehe.

when you messaged in fb, I thought you wanted to ask me something important.
And WTF, "please help me expand my bakery in baking life?!"

I NEARLY FAINTED"

2010-10-23T23:33:00.000-07:00

Its hard, but I'm going to persevere.
The temptation is killing me.

Somehow these days I don't have the appetite to eat anymore. My mom even bought KFC back home for lunch, the more I stared at it the more I didn't want to eat it.
Is my body getting sick?

My mood was always below average. I didn't quite feel happy or elated. The only thing that keeps me going is listening to YUI and BUMP OF CHICKEN songs.

I realized, Kpop fans' jealous is a real, real, scary thing. They have this mindset where the band is only existed for them, and them alone. (For some hardcore ones)
For some fans they are real friendly, but they abandons all promises to other fans when it comes to the real deal, like meeting the idols face-to-face.

This is such a scary scene. In the past, when I was indulging in this experiences, I feel that most of the time I have abandoned my friends and families. I was always stalking information about them online and watching their videos.

The addiction to go without all those its hard. During the addiction times I felt like I'm on drugs. That I can't go without doing those things everyday.

And it causes me to daydream about meeting the idols in real life, and things like that.
I realized I was close to being a mental person, that my whole life was consisted of them and only them. I was in the unhealthy range.

I decided to stop this obsession and craze. It's killing me.
So bye, I'M LEAVING THE KPOP FANDOM.

2010-10-23T09:16:00.000-07:00

Again. Quarrel. Nothing comes out good in terms of money.

I'm on my own.

edit/

I will not fall prey to greed. Suddenly this thought was implanted in my head:

"I'm greedy. It's time to stop. Be appreciative with what you have."
And I felt touched.

Is it the power of God?

Will not fall into temptation and obsession.

2010-10-23T08:17:00.000-07:00

Somehow today, I realized something.
Kpop is just an obsession to me. The urge to see the band members but not the music.
Thanks Cheryl for waking me up to reality.
When I think about GazettE "IF" they coming to Singapore to perform a live, I think about their music.
I find it weird when I didn't think the same way as Kpop.

I think I'm more to the 'Rock' genre type.
OH AND I BOUGHT GAZETTE POSTER TODAY! IM SO HAPPY!

The poster is real big! I'm still wondering where to place it. :D I'm so happy. Especially its from Filth in the Beauty concept look! OH MY GOD!!!

As I began to think, I realized today I have the feeling that Kpop has "abandoned" me. I don't know why. Or maybe the other way around.
Jrock FTW!
Thanks cheryl. :)

2010-10-22T11:03:00.000-07:00

Ah, good morning earthlings!

I have done some photoshopping these days! I feel accomplished after not touching my photoshop program for several months.

Good and bad things happen recently.

But firstly, please do visit my Deviantart!
I learnt how to control my anger, and keep on persevering no matter how many times I failed.
I'm currently learning the basics of CSS and HTML, and I tried coding my website.
It is not that easy. I had to restart the whole code again and again, and thanks to Ryan coaching me along, I managed to completed 40% or lesser of my website!

Thanks Ryan for the server that you shared with me! You're truly a great friend.
Although you guys aren't interested in my website...however, I still wanted to post the link up.
Click here: Link

And the wallpaper above too. Too me the whole night to complete it. Although it may seem not that great in your point of view, but to me it's contains a sentimental value. This is the first result I didn't gave up halfway when constructing a wallpaper in Photoshop.

Well...I'm kinda proud of this.. It's my time and effort!

SHINee probably came to Singapore today without Jonghyun. It's kinda disappointing when I see advertisements all around the net and forums, advertising that they wanted to sell their Kpop Night Concert ticket just because one member isn't attending.

Where's the spirit? You go to concerts BECAUSE YOU LIKE THE MUSIC AND THE BAND, NOT BECAUSE OF ONE MEMBER.
Or that's what I thought. I wish I could attend the concert, but due to financial difficulties, I couldn't. What a lucky bunch of people who had tickets, but they didn't treasure it.

In my point of view, I feel that Singapore's music entertainment is formed by the public. What the majority of the public likes to listen to, or support to, they promote it.
It's kind of disappointing where Jpop wave was over, and they removed most of the albums in stores, it's such a big change.

I really hope that Jrock doesn't get promoted by the event companies. If they do, more people would just 'pretend' to get into the trend and 'pretend' to like the bands, like buying the concert tickets and not appreciating the music, but just the appearance of the band members.

If majority of such fans took up the tickets available, what happens to those fans that truly appreciate the music and wanted to listen to the band performing live?
They don't get the chance at all.

But that's only a part of the reason. It also depends on the fan's passion for the band, whether they are willing to queue up for the ticket..

There's no such thing as bad music, IMO. Different people have different taste in music.
Music is where it calms you down, gets you energetic, or feel touched, etc etc.

Ok wtf am I talking about.
Anyways, for this time, I think I don't have the chance to listen to them live or even see them in real life at all since they're entering through the VIP exit.
:( Ah, just pure fangirling moments, haha!

2010-10-15T03:39:00.000-07:00

Oh! And I almost forget to add something:

Pei Yi bought for me Jonghyun 'Sticky' candy. Haha, more like on impulse since Huiyan was buying it too. I thought since it was ages since I last ate Sticky candies, so might as well enjoy this one!

I couldn't bear to taste it yet. Hopefully it tastes great!

HAHAHAHAHA AND CHERYL IS GONNA BLAST AT ME ONCE SHE SAW THIS.
TAKE THIS CHERYL! (Y)

I'M SUPPORTING THE KOREAN BAND GUYZ ALL THE WAY! I'M GOING TO BUY THEIR SINGLE AND ALBUMS. THEY DESERVE IT!

2010-10-15T03:19:00.001-07:00

I have to tell myself this over and over again:

Looks aren't everything. Looks aren't everything, looks aren't everything.

Somehow, I really hate this low self esteem of mine. Inside me, I'm always having this thought:
"That girl is prettier than me, she deserves it more."
"I don't deserve this."
"She's more talented."

I guess that's why I'm always at the same stage of my life. Without my friends, I wouldn't have been moving on, completing each stage of obstacle, one by one, slowly.

As I walked down orchard or bugis, I see many girls wearing nice fashionable clothes, and I looked down at myself, only to have a sight of a normal graphical tee, a pair of jeans and a pair of converse sneakers.

If I said I'm not envious of the them, I would be telling myself a lie.
I have this really strong part of me, which I place "Pride" as my top priority. But I always convinced my mind to think otherwise.

I always refresh my mind with the past preaches from various people in my life, which helped me tons.

- Love everyone for who they are
- Endure
- Fuck appearances
- Love the weaknesses
- Love my enemy

I guess, if it wouldn't for the last one, i wouldn't have this peaceful thinking inside of me.
Although loving your enemy might be hard, but we might not know unless we try.
Hating someone is really tiring, why not love them?

Time to refresh my mind, move on and start to love.

I'm tired of hating people, and the things I hate to do. I should start loving them, one by one.
This way, I can live a better life. I won't worry. I won't panic. I won't have doubts. Because I know I believe in Him, whom he can see and guide me through the paths and the future. I trust in Him.

2010-10-14T10:29:00.000-07:00

Ahh, another round of blogging tonight.

I have been attending Huiyan's cell group for these few weeks.
Enjoyed my time there. :) haha I get to know new Friends too!

I felt that to be able to work and earn income itself its a fortunate thing...
No matter how low is the pay... You get the experience which is priceless!
Had a chat with my friend, she has experience in working part times... Her jobs are all those high paying jobs...
I told her that I was working at home keying in the data entry, which is 50 cents per piece which I find it really good enough for me,
She exclaimed that it's too low paying job..

I suddenly felt annoyed by her. The way she talks... It seems like she doesn't appreciate money, in that sense to me.
You earn your own income, it doesn't matter how low the pay people sees from the outside, but yourself. Think about it,
If you are a thrifty person, 1k salary probably is sufficient for you, enough for you to spend things on, and it seems to you that the salary is high for you, and you're satisfied with the pay. Because it suits you and your lifestyle.

But people outside may think differently, they have different opinions, like "1k isn't enough for me", "it's better for me to earn more", etc.
The more the people think this way the more they hard
To find satisfaction with the greed they have. Greed can be easily cultured by the thinking we have.

Simple thoughts get satisfied easily.
Complicated thoughts are hard to find satisfaction.

Maybe they are not true, who knows.
Some people get the satisfaction by just listening to music, to be to walk, eat, do all the normal human can do.

It's all about the thoughts... Simplicity is the best, IMO.

For me, I think a peaceful life would be

Able to eat with my family and friends,
Talking and chatting, spending time with each other,
Doing the simple things i like to do.
Experiencing all the emotions and memories....

Happiness can be achieved with all the simple things that we do.
It doesn't mean we have to be rich, popular, powerful, etc.

I once remembered I was happy when I first saw one idols in real life, although it's from afar.
I remembered I clapped instead of screaming when I saw SHINee at the airport, boarding the bus.
I remembered I screamed for the first time when I saw SuG and LM.C at the airport, and Maya waved to our direction!
I remembered we laughed badly at MINDS cafe, and all other stuff.

Ahh those happy days.

2010-10-04T03:30:00.000-07:00

Depressed...

SIM cards hates me.

1. iPhone Sim went wrong, couldn't text and call but data plan works fine.
People at M1 doesn't know whats the problem, just replaced the SIM card. now it works. (I hope its for long term...)

2. I borrowed my brother's phone for tdy, all i did was text and the phone says: "Please insert SIM Card" I'm like WTF!

....

i feel guilty. my mom's face was pure sian-ed type

2010-09-30T07:05:00.000-07:00

Updated with new photos that I took some time ago, and edit them, by enhancing their colors and with a few tints of color and stuff.
How is it?

Boring day today. However I can't wait for tomorrow. Going to Huiyan's cell group. Can't wait to meet Elle! We can spazz about YUI together! <3 Jassie is being her moody and emo self again. I hope she really get rid of her low self esteem and see the world in a different perspective.. that would be great... Next week is the N levels. After that is FREEDOOOOOOOOOOOM!!!

And should I go to the airport to "welcome"(this is a nicer term to say rather than stalk LOL) SHINee? Somehow I wanna be hyped up with Peiyi and Huiyan and scream or clap (Oh that memory, I remembered I clapped instead of screaming when I saw them boarding the bus at the airport) for although I'm not really a hardcore fan.

Plus it's really exciting to see idols coming out of the arrival gate and then you hear a bunch of fans screaming, "AHHHHHHH!" And then all of them chases the idols and I would try to take a bunch of pictures and increase my traffic on my youtube account.

The same usual process.. But I heard (i dont know whether it's true) that SHINee is coming for a day, and then going right back to Korea after the concert.

I'm interested in photography these days. Although I'm still amateur, producing these low quality work...
When will I be in a relationship, ne? As I walk down the street, I see couples holding hands and foooling around. Envious! I guess its not the right time yet..

AND I'M NOT DESPERATE, MIND YOU.

2010-09-29T20:03:00.000-07:00

Rushed...
Urgent...

Last night I felt like a thousand formulas is in my mind and I can't sleep. Too stressed to sleep.
Somehow... Luckily Ryan was there chatting with me to sleep before I really could be insane.

Argh, they should stop with these examinations already..

2010-09-28T04:34:00.000-07:00

One of my guitars, edited in Adobe Lightroom. :D
I finally understood in Geog! About rivers and stuff. Thanks ms lee for slowly coaching me even though I kept repeating the same questions over and over again.
Maybe I understood a lil in POA too.
I have tons of things to yell out.

YUI'S NEW SINGLE [RAIN]

RELEASE ON 24TH NOV.

ONE MORE DAY TO

FLUMPOOL'S SINGLE, KIMI

NI TODOKE.

You have no idea how excited I am. I can't wait for YUI's new single! All of her singles have been so far, great and meaningful. I can't wait for the next single!
I wonder how does it sound like, and what does it mean...
So far I have a radio-ripped version of the song, but it isn't clear. :( The melody so far is great!

1 moar week to N levels. I can't wait for the exams to end, and I shall have a slack life ahead.
And I heard that Kpop night is coming. 23 oct?
Probably Huiyan, Elle, Peiyi might be all hyped up and excited about it, since SHINee are attending it too. Can't wait to see Peiyi and Huiyan scream........................THAT'S WHEN THOU SHALT LAUGH HAHAHAHA.

And next year is Super Junior's concert. I can't wait for the photos that ms lee is going to help me take!!

Ok 'nuff about fangirling

I'm so disappointed that I can't attend THE GAZETTE'S NAMELESS LIBERTY SIX BULLETS FINALE... 26 December at TOKYO DOME!!
AND ITS THE FINALE OMG. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!

I wanted to attend one of gazette's concert in my lifetime.. I guess.. I have to wait, ne?

2010-09-24T08:57:00.001-07:00

I made this Kai sig/tag a few days back. I have a feeling its kinda weird... but overall..

LOL LOL LOL. had a massive spamming messaging with cheryl just now.
and its really.......................................................cough.

its too obscene too be revealed. LOL. wtf cheryl!
i saw 11:11 today! and i dont know its just today or what, but i fangirl over reita until im real hyper.
You can't deny how hot reita is~~~~ HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

and I keep staring at Ruki's picture.

I love this style of Ruki's! Its my favourite out of all. And Filth in the Beauty is still the best~
Come to think of it... Flumpool's Kimi ni Todoke is released on ~~wednesday~~...
scratch that, its supposed to be released one 29 sep. :(

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im so sorry my dear readers (if i even have any), i had to update this post with moar reita's pictures.
I HAVE A THING FOR BASSIST I SWEAR. LOLOLOL.

im hot over heels for
Saga(Bassist) from Alice nine~
And Reita from Gazette~~~~

WHAT THE HELL AM I SAYING.
oh right! i love the guitar solo and bass! you have to listen to this:

An Unbearable Fact - the GazettE

2010-09-22T21:34:00.000-07:00

ah, listening to flumpool and YUI songs really makes me feel happy.
the lyrics are really meaningful..

The best was YUI's song, I'll Be lyrics. She really motivated me when I dropped out of school... which I didn't talk to my peers... and stayed in my room, for the whole day, staring out into space and feeling dazed. I don't know what overcame me.

Luckily, my friend introduced me, I'll Be - YUI. He was a fanatic of her. I remembered how absurd I found him in the first place as it was my first time seeing a fanboy.
As I listened to the song, and I began looking up the lyrics and the meaning of the song.
I started to get more motivation after knowing the lyrics of the song...
I don't know how to describe, but I felt a sense of emotion, knowing that I can do it again.
I can start over again, not matter how many times I fall.

Dewa, I'll Be - YUI lyrics -

I’ll be thinking
About you
You’ve decided on your journey right
Together You have my support no matter when

If there ever comes a time when you feel like giving up
Don’t simply coop up in your room

Walk on the streets
Oh Baby Try to find that feeling
Which you felt on this day

Try over and over again “Play You”
Because there ain’t any other choice

I’ll be You just have to
Paint it into your own color
Though there will definitely be uncertainties
Together You have my support no matter when

If there ever comes a time when you feel like you’re losing to loneliness
Listen to the songs that you love

Even if you are
Lost in the crowd
You’ll be able to find it Oh Baby Try

Because a smile will “Play You”
Become your strength

I’ll be thinking
About you
You’ve decided on your journey right
Together You have my support no matter when

The time when you find yourself slowly
Beginning to love someone
The courage to protect that someone
Will grow in you

I’ll be Each time you look back
On those little disappointments definitely
You’ll be able to feel the gentleness
It seems life is not something to be thrown away

I’ll be You just have to
Paint it into your own colour
Though there will definitely be uncertainties
Together You have my support no matter when

I still remember where I'll be was my first YUI song that I listened to!
And I got hooked to it, then I began to slowly support YUI songs after that.

YUI BANZAI!
I hope that I can be like her, composing her own songs and playing the guitar...
Supporting others through her lyrics and the cheerful melody..
And even though I know the decision I made has made me turn away from my original path, but taking the long and difficult path.. I didn't regret it once.
If I didn't choose this path,

I wouldn't have met Cheryl.
I wouldn't have met Bernice,
I wouldn't have found out who my real friends were.
I wouldn't have looked at the world differently from the last time.
I wouldn't have become more independent.
I wouldn't have experienced things that normal school pupils wouldn't have experienced.
I wouldn't have become more closer to my parents, especially my dad.

Sometimes, i always dream that after i get married, having children, i would tell them my life story and what i've experienced. HAHAHAHA. Ok coughs.
I kept looking for a shortcut way to complete my education, and I thought it would be easy and I would get into any school I want, and things would be like what I've imagined.
but after what i experienced, I felt like this sentence slapped me hard:

Life doesn't go your way, life is unfair.

2010-09-21T07:04:00.000-07:00

oh god graduation day today.
Took some photos of the graduation night that i had. well, the decorating process. didn't really took pictures during it, though...
my parents came. cheryl's mom came. didn't really socialize around as I'm not much of the socializing type..
and how unlucky, i got chosen for the charade game. mr goh's action for 'Harry Potter' is seriously....

"hairy" *pinches arms*
"pot" *create a circle shape*

that is suppose to show "harry potter"....
anyways luckily the person manage to guess it correctly.

Dear bernice trying to pose for the camera, again.
WHILE DECORATING THE CLUBHOUSE!
we went home after it finished giving out the awards, as we had nothing much to do there...

i swear i'll never attend parties again.
i hate socializing.

i realized, MY IPHONE CAMERA IS SO BLOODY CLEAR OH MY GOD.

2010-09-18T11:56:00.000-07:00

You have no idea how much times I tried to touch on the new post button to
Post this. My hand is kinda sweaty from holding it a long period of time...

As I thought back to the past... Ever since I started listening to YUI, I got motivated to Learn the guitar... As I'm practicing along with my Newly bought guitar, I'm slowly starting to find my own type of playing style.. :D

These days, I kept worrying about my upcoming N levels.. Especially on the topics about geography and poa.. I know nothing about them and I seriously gotta catch up on it soon! Instead I got hooked up to the guitar and fanfic instead. -.-

I began to think through about my past memories... Whether how much I've changed and how much I have grown..

Sad to say, I'm back to the fangirl season, AGAIN. Oh dear how?! Gazette~ I cant wait for their RED single!!

Heheheehe

2010-09-13T06:04:00.000-07:00

got a new hairstyle today... kinda not used to it but it seems more better for me.

haha its been ages since i ate the bibimbap at wisma! it was great, except for the humongous amount of chili that they added into the rice.

we had a major phototaking today...
after eating, we went to far east plaza and walked around. found one salon, which is not bad. went there to try, since they offered 30% discount for first timers.

i requested them to cut an hairstyle that volumize my hair, and they did great! but it needs a little time to adjust though. for sure im going back there again.

they gave me tips on how to style my hair and how to take care. great service!
those who are interested in the salon, can go visit Formula Salon at Far east plaza.

from....

to this:

ok i seem like a tomboy but... i feel more carefree. haha!
somehow like, the previous hairstyle im always thinking about when am i going to have a relationship. I realised, that isn't important anymore.

what is important that i am happy with my current lifestyle and friends...
hehehehehehehehehehehe. im glad that bernice, cheryl and jassie thinks that this hairstyle is better than the last one!

2010-09-09T10:05:00.000-07:00

I got addicted to the iPhone photography app, suddenly found my Converse shoesbox and sneakers interesting and decided to take a shot of it. LOLOLOL.

But you can't deny how wonderful the effects are! It turned out great!

2010-09-09T07:11:00.000-07:00

I bought new shoes! I was testing out the camera and took pictures of my shoes~ Replaced the shoelaces with brown. :)

Hoho. Im going to get a guitar on Sunday!
Im going to get G440C definitely!

I accidentally dropped my old guitar and a piece of wood fell out. :( Sigh..

2010-09-08T06:56:00.000-07:00

こんばんわ！

今日はね、　英語テストはあります。　ショクですよ！　
英語テストは本とに簡単ですよね～
うれしな～　私はパパもママの笑うははじめて見えます。
今週日曜日はパパは私のためにギターは買っている。うれし！　

さってとー
アヂエウ～

2010-09-02T07:36:00.000-07:00

So much visits to my house today.
I realized that I am a person which prefers some peace and quiet rather than merry and noisy atmosphere. I can't seem to click.

I enjoyed more with bernice's presence rather than jassie and group...
maybe its just that.

2010-08-31T22:09:00.000-07:00

i realised i've been the one chasing, chasing, chasing after people, and the only one feeling disappointment.
maybe i should just chill, take it easy and start adapting to the independent life, where there's always me, i and myself involved.

sorry but im just sick and tired of going after friends anymore.

if they are people that truly cherishes you, they would go to you in the first place, why chase?

"shentel, if people doesn't want to respond to you, don't care them, if dont want then dont want lor! they are missing out a good friend, there is always other people out there, why only stay at one? friends come and goes, it repeats and repeats the same process again. why so emotional lehhhhhh?"

Being healthy.

2010-08-28T03:44:00.000-07:00

Peepos! Shentel here has decided to lose weight seriously!
I realized I've gained like tons of kilos ever sknce I dropped out of government school. It's time for me to lose the extra fats!

I hoped the fats had went into my chest though. *coughs* never mind.

This is my declaration!!

Honey, I may not eat you for awhile. Please wait longer for me to lose weight to be able to consume how many times as I want. So please wait for me. I will be back in a few Months!

I shall stay away from fried food and fast food, any carbo of that matter! Water eater all the way.....

Thoughts.

2010-08-25T03:56:00.000-07:00

It's been ages since I last posted. Many things happen, and I learnt from it.
I want to tell this good news first. I got a new iPhone 4! It's great, although I can't jailbreak, YET. I will wait for the new jailbreak.
As I'm typing this now, my mom is singing the weird hokkien song, and my brothers friend is hogging up my computer and laptop. Argh.

I watched liar game and it was great! This week was the prelins week, and the day before was Mock exams period. Cheryl declared her own holidays, but I understand that she's having the low motivation disorder.

This week she came back and it feels good to talk to her again! I guess a break is good for relationships or friendships. It refreshes the whole thing. Ok enuff of my blabbers.

These few days I keep thinking of things that I've done, and about myself and my actions.
Have I done the correct thing? Did I so something wrong?
Should I change myself?
Am I such a bad friend?

I kept thinking thoughts like that. Luckily, Cheryl SMS-Ed me in time and she gave me a pretty good advice, as she has been through it before. I don't know what to do without her if she didn't SMS me that time.

Sometimes, you may think that the number of friends is important, but did it ever cross your mind that any of them is willing to go through thick and thin with you? Friends are people that celebrates with you, have fun with you, go through he'll with you, and they are the epeople that you can trust.

I've always thought the more friends, the better.
But now, I thought otherwise.

Number of friends is not important, but the quality of friends is. What's the use of having many friends that will leave you sooner or later?

Finding friends like these is hard. It takes time and effort to find them. See them by their personality, not looks.

2010-08-02T03:44:00.000-07:00

Time to get a new tuner.
Wednesday~ I can't wait~

2010-07-31T16:11:00.000-07:00

Hungry......
Can't sleep...........

はらへたも....

みつどもえはさいこ！　

2010-07-30T21:56:00.000-07:00

"These are old man shoes.."
"Excuse me?"
*Looks down*
"Nn..nah its great."

2010-07-29T04:55:00.001-07:00

Oh god. Today is the best day of my life.

Clear view of LM.C + SuG in the aiport today!

I got a clear video of them too! Gya gya gya gya. Still wondering whether I should post them on YouTube. Maya waved at cheryl's and my direction! Kya!

Oh my god. The Jrock craze is slowly taking over. This time, I felt more accomplished than the previous time SHINee came, which I went purely for fun.

THIS SHOWS THE POWER OF JROCK!

The vids I took below:

2010-07-27T03:09:00.001-07:00

Ok, its fucking scary where your brother knows a sentence that you spoke/posted/typed that you find familiar but you are not sure where you typed/sent/spoke/posted it on. Be it the forums, SMS to your friend, or facebook.

I swear my brother loves to invade my privacy, and yet I don't fucking know where I said/posted/typed it on. God. Racked through hundreds of my memory in my brain but yet I don't recall any of it. Most probably it has been stored far far deep into my brain.

Somehow I really hope my family gives me a little privacy in what I do. I don't wanna be like an open book where everyone knows everything about me. I NEED MY PRIVACY!

I hate it when my brother and dad browse through my handphone to see my texts. i know he hates it when I did the same to him, yet he still doesn't stop. I don't want to revert to my old ways where I had to delete every single text people have sent me, and forgetting stuff.

Kapuuuuum.

Oh I recalled where I posted it. LOLOLOLOL.

2010-07-24T09:32:00.000-07:00

I'M GETTING MY COPY OF YUI'S ALBUM [HOLIDAYS IN THE SUN] ON MONDAY!!

Oh my god im so hyped up. Its time!!!

KYA HAHAHAHAHA KUFUFUFUFUFUFUFUFUFU

YUI SAMA~~~

2010-07-23T09:56:00.000-07:00

You know what?

FUCK MATHS.

Been trying to rack my brains over Trigo and all I get is the wrong answer.
I'm sure the bloody answer sheet is wrong.

2010-07-23T09:03:00.000-07:00

I realized my brain is starting to rot day by day.........
I need to rack my brains moar!

You know what?
I'm so goddamned fascinated by Reita in SHIVER pv. Omg.

You can't deny how hot he is. Even Huiyan the KPOP crazed girl admits it.

SEE THE POWA OF JROCK!

Now you can't deny that Reita is hot. See, the power of VISUAL KEI!

Oh my Ruki~~~~~ ^^^^ Well,

CHERYL MY LOYALTY STILL LIES IN JROCK VISUAL KEI!

2010-07-21T04:52:00.001-07:00

I added hair extensions today.
Can't get used to it. I'm afraid I will look weird........

2010-07-20T04:58:00.000-07:00

IMMA TAKA MYA REVENGA ONA BERNICA!

Get well soon bernice! I hope your angle recovers soon! No more pen hunting tomorrow. :(
What should I eat for lunch tomorrow... Hmmm...

Sigh, looking back at those pictures, I somehow wish that we could revert back to the past... Where everyone was together. Look at us now. Do you remember Geok Yin? :(
Such a waste.

Oh Goodbye Days.

BERNICE I SWEAR I WILL TAKE MY REVENGE WITH YOU LIKE THAT!

GEOK YIN IF YOU SEE THIS I MISS YOU COME BACK!!

2010-07-17T09:55:00.001-07:00

I just realised tomorrow i'll be deprived of my mentality.

CHERYL, BERNICE I'LL HATE YOU IF I SCREAM IN THE CINEMA TOMORROW, YOU HENTAI!

Wish me good luck. Blood Pledge tomorrow. It's my first horror movie I am going to watch tomorrow, in cinema..............................

Kapuuum.

2010-07-15T05:06:00.000-07:00

Ah, great day. Watched Nodame Cantabile: the final. Not as good as the first movie....
Cheryl sneezed through the movie. Non stop. I nearly jumped when she sneezed loudly at the quietest part of the movie. LOL.

Anyways, funny stuff happened in school.
"OH MY GOD, THE **** SO HIGH UP ONE AR?! "

Its time to change.

2010-07-14T00:31:00.001-07:00

....To get a new mouse. I swear this little mouse of mine is being frantic, running all over my screen.
Caused me to close my windows before I'm done with them. Pfft.

I can't wait for my YUI album! It's arriving in 2 weeks after the release date. Some people who has pre-ordered had their copy arrived before the release date already. :( Damn sheep for not ordering early.

Tomorrow its the day I shall watch Nodame Cantabile: The Final. I hope GV updates the show times~

Someone got stuck in the school's toilet today.

I realised Cheryl's imagination is goddamned..............

you know what I mean. Deeks.

シェイリ！　あなたはへんたいですよ！　たすけて！

2010-07-10T12:20:00.000-07:00

HAY THAR.

ANGEL'S TRIP - VAMPS IS AWESOME.

I can't stop repeating it over and over again.

2010-07-04T21:40:00.001-07:00

MAH HAIR!!!!!!!

Actually the color ain't that bad. Chestnut brown.

2010-06-16T07:43:00.000-07:00

Went out with Jassie, Huiyan, Peiyi and her maple friend, Xuan.
Well basically we tried to talk and mix around, but yeah, still feels a tad bit awkward. We went to marina square today, shopped around, and went to starbucks to have a short study session there.
I gave up halfway and played Jassie's PSP instead. LOL. Went to HMV to check whether YUI's gloria is available, but sadly no. :(

今日はおもしろくんないです。　：（

PS: I realised, my eyebags are getting more and more obvious. Omg :(

2010-06-15T04:46:00.001-07:00

Ahhhh. Thee decided that today shalt beth moi new start, since thee goth a new haircut. :D
Went out with Cheryl today~ Went out to various places, did tons of crazy things~

今日はね、　私のかみをきった。
私のかみがだいすきです！　新人生は始める～！
Facebook　に私の新しゃしんである。　見て下さい！
シェリルと私といしょにです。　
我々は、　ばかのようり見える。　－。－

2010-06-14T12:56:00.000-07:00

Ahh, it's been ages since I last updated. Tons of things happened. I changed. Everybody changed. I had a great conversation with Cheryl tonight. Somehow I'm baffled and find it hilarious at her sense of "shakespeare language".

Today I shalt type in thy language. YUI is releasing her album soon in July, [Holidays In The Sun], everyone please support her! :)
Below is thee poor attempt at typing in Japanese. I hath much moe to learnst, please be lenienst anth triest not to laughest! :I

いろいろエヴェントはとっくじょおでした。
私はね、　いろいろきもちがある。　私は愛はできるでしょか。。　
自信はない。　でも、私はベストをつくすよ。　

シャイにーがかっこいですね～　でも、ガゼットはずっとずっとかっこいです～

ではでは、　アデウ！
（YUI　さんはさいこだ！）

2010-04-12T04:45:00.001-07:00

Thinking of getting upper ear bone piercing.. Should i?

2010-04-10T07:47:00.000-07:00

YATTA!!

gazette's new dvd will be releasing soon! can't wait omgomgomgomgomgomg.

probably i'll go HMV to purchase it after 2 weeks after it's released....since i can't order online.

がセっト　万歳！　すごいい　ですね～

2010-04-10T02:43:00.000-07:00

こんばんわ！

今日は私は女で見てる。。。きらいなんだ。
かのじょはこえるです。

私はね、　かりこみあります！
まあ、　へいきん　ですね。　私は好きじゃない。

しゃしん　あります！
Facebookであります。　見てください！

2010-03-20T08:41:00.000-07:00

ほほ～

今日はほんとにすごいですね～　でも、　我々は、映画を鑑賞することはできません。
チケットは全て売り切れです。　ほんとに不運ですね。

日本語クラスはおもしろかったです。　私は多くのことを、そこから学んです。　

今日はシェリルさんの電話台無しにされ。　我々は、店にそれを修正するためだった。　

I learnt one phrase today:
私だって、　怒るときは怒るんだよ！　ニャン　ニャン　ガオ！　
Thanks to the video Cheryl introduced me today.

Omg its late now. Gottago. I can't believe the above japanese post took me tons of time to complete it. -_-

2010-03-17T04:36:00.000-07:00

Oh my god.
I didn't expect it would turn out like this.
Rakion account got banned. Ah, whatever. But the main point is,

I just bought the stat buff which lasted for seven days.

The ban might be permanent ban or 7 days. Oh my.

2010-03-05T23:49:00.000-08:00

Getting paranoid and controlling these days.
I'm just too afraid that everything might disappear just in one night.
Probably I shouldn't be too over demanding.

2010-02-24T01:50:00.000-08:00

okay dear people,　use google translator if you don't understand what i'm writing below because i'm going to attempt writing my very first japanese blog entry.

broken and wrong japanese usage warning
all of them will be in hiragana, no kanji.
kanji forms are the ones i google translated them. hahahahaha.

みなさん、　こばんわ！

Shentel さん　です！　今日は　くらすでつかれ　です。　わたし　しゅうちゅうするわできません。　ほんとにつかれでいる。　〔I'm not sure whether Iused this phrase correctly.）

今日はテコンドーの授業をサボることを決めた。　つかれです。　

はいはい、　時間は私を食べています！　
さよなら！

2010-02-06T19:35:00.000-08:00

Cheryl, I feel you.

I know what you feel in the salon.

I have the same situation with you before, and many times at that!

2010-02-06T05:07:00.001-08:00

Finally dyed the red streaks to a darker color!

AND I GOT MAH TAE KWON DO BELT! NEW RANK. WOOT.

2010-02-05T03:40:00.000-08:00

Oh yay.

Dyed my whole head with light copper plus some red streaks of BRIGHT red at my fringe and side of my hair.
Came back home with mom screaming to my ear.

'SHENTEL!!!!!!!!!!'

Oh bloody great.

Stupid. I shouldn't have redyed it. See those bright red streaks?
My dad even said I look like 'ahbeng' Do I really look like?

2010-02-04T01:48:00.001-08:00

Fucking pissed.

2010-01-31T00:23:00.000-08:00

I'm so pissed!

Thanks SHINee for wasting 4 hours of my life and 16 bucks!
Omg. Forget about it.

Today I had my Tae Kwon Do belt grading. Thankfully it went by smoothly!
At least one good thing happen today. After the grading, when to Lot 1 to see
SHINee's Fansigning.

That's where the whole pissed thing starts. I went to the 4th floor, only to find the escalator blocked by the security guard and tons of rabid fangirls crowding around the escalator.
Even the people who wanted to watch a movie had a hard time going up into the cinema.

Well, why did the management choose such a place for fanmeeting in the first place?!
They should choose some other place which is more spacious. There are tons of other places which is more spacious than Lot 1! God. Can't they hold it at Vivo?! Vivo is so goddamned big which is so empty.

Anyways, went to Long John to eat lunch. Cheryl went home first, since she's worried for her mother who fell down... Hope her mom is ok.
After we went back to try our luck again. Too bad. Another failure. Waited awhile and then cabbed home.

What a great day.
Notice the sarcasm?

2010-01-30T03:00:00.000-08:00

Now that SHINee even came to Singapore,

I WANT the GazettE to come to Singapore too!

God. WHY?! I'm deprived of the GazettE's glory. I think I'm getting too obsessed with SHINee ever since I saw them in the airport yesterday.
Gotta stop. I ain't going to their fanmeeting tomorrow.

Tomorrow is the taekwondo's grading test... I have a feeling that I'm going to screw up.
Have to practice all the moves by tonight.

And I'm so bloody cold.

2010-01-14T02:36:00.000-08:00

One of my previous photoshop work. Sigh, I realized I haven't been using the computer often like I always do.

Sigh, sometimes I feel that I've been going out a lot lately, and spending tons of money.

Tomorrow I'm going to watch 'Hear Me' movie with Cheryl at Jurong Point tomorrow.

Watched Vampire's Assistant yesterday. It's pretty hilarious, except for some parts which were horror. But overall its quite ok. Before the movie, we went to eat bimbap(Korean mixed rice) and some dukk (Korean spicy rice cakes). Spent 15 bucks on that one.

Cheryl ate it until she had a stomachache, her lips is like, all red. After eating bimbap, we went to Cineleisure to catch a movie. After buying the tixs we went to burger king to do our homework.

I SWEAR I WAS IN HEAVEN!!! I DIDN'T KNOW BURGER KING HAS SO MANY HOT GUYS. OH WOW.

fangirl alert here

1 angmoh hot guy. never see face. (cheryl spotted him)

4 singaporean hot guys (again CHERYL spotted them. LOLOL)

5 or 4 thailand hot guys (they just sat right behind me [OH WOOT] and again, cheryl spotted them first.)

too bad they can't be compared to

Chris Massoglia

in the movie.

HOT.

I forget to mention one more thing.

On the way home, cheryl and me are sandwiched between two really "passionate" couples. oh the horror.

never mind, its worth it after a cute guy in redish orange came into the mrt train. saw his face. see his body physique.

thumbs up. (y)

I finally cleared up my head.

Study study study study study.

player player player player.

= no no no no no.

2010-01-10T02:44:00.000-08:00

I hope my life stays like this, without any problems.

I should nominate Huiyan for the best lame jokes ever award.

She never fails to make me laugh with her lame jokes. Really funny.

Was supposed to go out with my family today, but I think my dad has other appointments, so it was cancelled out in the end.

Peiyi stayed over at my house last night, with us playing audi for the whole night.

We failed at Audi miserably

I realized I've changed a lot ever since I knew Jassie, mother SPY, THY and Cheryl.

Life changed after that.

I'm glad I met them.

2010-01-08T07:50:00.000-08:00

I have a feeling that I'm going to flunk my N level.

2010-01-02T22:53:00.000-08:00

1 more day, and school reopens.
Time files so fast, and I'm still in the holiday mood. I always have problems attending school after a long break. Sigh.
I hope everything will go by smoothly. Time to buck up and study!

Naiteru Jikan wa nai.
There's no time to cry.

Listening to YUI's Gloria gets me into the studying mood~
YUI~

And Jazzie, it's not fish. Its YUI.
Oh right, this time, I manage to highlight my hair.

Cry yai yai yai yai yai?

2009-12-28T07:23:00.000-08:00

Omg, I'm addicted to YUI's Gloria.
Listening to her songs makes me so motivated.
I'm urging to study right now. LOL.
YUI-SAMA~~~~~ LOL.

ah ah ah ah ah
Miwaku no tobira jyuurai no tenbou datte
yuragisou ni naru seishun jidai de
jinsei ga kawaru koishitai no ni
okubyou ni naru mondai yamadzuminan da
kotae wo michibiku tame ni ha This feeling
kirisuterarenai All night long

Yume janaiyai yai yai yai yai?
te ga todokisou na GLORIA
tama ni mienakunatte

Cry yai yai yai yai yai?
chikamichi wo sagashite mo onaji ne
mata mayotte shimau desho

ah ah ah ah ah
seikousha no koe takadaka ni
kataru EPISOODO taningoto mitai
ima no watashi chiisana heya de
kangaeteiru kuusou no mirai ni
toikakete miru keredo That feeling
IMEEJI dekinai no ga All night long

Maketenai yai yai yai yai?
Kagayaku saki ni GLORIA
chikadzuiteru hazu sa

Cry yai yai yai yai yai?
Mou dare no sei ni mo shinai yo
zenbu dakishimeteiku
Muchuu ni narena kya uso ne

uh uh uh sakura ga saku koro ni kitto
uh uh uh atarashii jibun ni deaeru no

yume janai hazu yo mukuwareru to shinjiteru
hontou ha kowaii kedo
Cry yai yai yai yai yai?
kuyashii kimochi ga aru kara Get Glory days*

Maketenai yai yai yai yai?
kagayaku saki ni GLORIA
chikadzuiteru hazu sa

Cry yai yai yai yai yai?
nemurenai yoru ni hitori
hiza wo kakaekonde mo
baby naiteru jikan ha nai

ah ah ah ah ah

English Translation

ah ah ah ah ah
The door to fascination? Even your view of your future
Tries to change, because of your youth
Your life changes, you want a girlfriend/boyfriend
But you become a coward, it's like a mountain full of challenges
In order to find the answer,
I can't throw away this feeling, all night long

Isn't it your dream?
Just a bit more, and you feel you can reach it
Sometimes I can't see it anymore

Cry?
It's the same even if you look for a shortcut
You'll just get lost again

ah ah ah ah ah
All the successful people, they boast
about their experiences, but they sound like they're talking about others
And here I am, in this small room
Thinking, Dreaming of my future
I ask myself, but
I can't imagine that feeling, all night long

Aren't you losing?
GLORIA just past that bright future
You sure are getting closer

Cry?
I won't blame others anymore
I'll take it all myself
If you can't forget about youself and do this frantically, it's all a lie

uh uh uh When sakura starts blooming
uh uh uh I'll probably be able to find my new self

It's not a dream, you believe that you can do this
Although I'm scared inside

Cry?
You feel vexed, so Get glory days

Aren't you losing?
GLORIA in front of the bright future
You sure are getting closer

Cry?
Alone during sleepless nights
Even when you wrap your arms around your knees
baby theres no time to cry

ah ah ah ah ah

------------------

I'll learn Jap by next year!

2009-12-25T10:32:00.000-08:00

Hello,

Had a great Christmas today. Went for Huiyan's church Christmas service. Meet tons of people there. :)

After the service, went to AMK Hub to eat with THY. SPY and Jassie had to go home due to some circumstances. Ate Japanese bento and bought minitoon sweets for my brother -_-
Went back to Aljunied after that.

I HAVE to mention this in my post. THY and me decided to take bus home. During the journey, we decided to listen to my iPod. I gave THY the right side of the earpiece. The earpiece I had were the recent model ones, where you have to squeeze it into your ear.

When I played the song The SHINee World, THY took out the earpiece to check whether the volume is loud. I turned to face her, and I noticed that she's just holding the earpiece alone, without the rubber.

I thought she wanted to clean the rubber.

Ended up, the other hand of hers went to reach her left ear, and the rubber came out.

From the insides of her ear.

After this ridiculous incident, THY and SPY went to my house to slacked, after that we meet up at 8pm. THY wanted to go to guardian to search for her 'nose blocker' or something.

While searching she noticed the 'WHITE, LONG AND ELASTIC' thingy in the rack. She wanted to know what it is. (I didn't know she was so innocent) She began asking me,
"Shentel, what's that? Is it for nipples?'

LMAO. I laughed like a hyena right on the spot. I didn't reply her, and she began holding up the plastic and examining it. I quickly stopped her and told her it's condoms.
She got extremely embarrassed after that.

After buying our stuff, we went to my flat's void deck and slacked there with Jassie. Chatted and gossiped about many stuffs. Went home around 10.30pm.

Pretty average for a Christmas day, but we got to know each other more.

I'M GOING FOR A HAIRCUT! DEFINITELY this time I'm going to highlight my hair.

2009-12-24T08:01:00.000-08:00

Hellooooo

Went for Samantha's christmas party today. Went to her house first, then to Expo.
Nothing much happened. Pretty average.
For the gift exchange, I got Samantha's present. LOL. 10 bucks voucher of starbucks.

I hate this thinking of mine. I should concentrate on my studies. Argh.

2009-12-23T02:44:00.001-08:00

Ah, it's been ages since I posted.
Took a break from blogging.
Tons of things happen, I lost and gained something.
I hope next year will be a good one.

2009-11-28T09:27:00.000-08:00

29 November 2009.

I'm not going to forget this day ever.
Thanks for saying those words to me, I've always thought
that I'm non-existent, unloved and unappreciated...

People like you are really hard to find.
Thanks for being there. :)

2009-11-27T08:44:00.001-08:00

Wasted.
*beep* my pride and shyness man. TOOT!

2009-11-22T00:27:00.000-08:00

I. AM. SICK.

Yet again.

Edit.
Had a disastrous chalet yesterday. Bathed and packed for the chalet in a hurry last afternoon, and then dad drove me to Pasir Ris to meet my relatives.
Slacked for the whole afternoon in the chalet room, waiting for my cousins to arrive.
Bored as hell.
Went to Sakura for dinner. Oh gosh, saw many shuai ges there. (H)

Went back to chalet. Originally I was supposed to stay until Monday, but I fell sick and cabbed home. Suppose to celebrate cousins' birthday tonight and BBQ.

I WANT CAKE!

2009-11-20T03:44:00.001-08:00

Woot!
I'm going to watch Gokusen The Movie with Samantha on Monday right after school.
FINALLY I'M MEETING MY HUSBAND. *cough*inthemovie*cough*

かめなしかずや~~~

Had a great day in school today.
The teachers took a great deal of hard-work and time to put up the activity. I really appreciate although I chose the wrong way to walk through.

Went home straight after school and napped all the way.
CAN'T WAIT FOR MONDAY, Samantha is treating me to watch a movie!
*Evil laugh*

Tomorrow chalet, celebrating my cousin's birthday.
But I haven't get his present ready yet. (My mom insists that we don't have to buy him one)
Intended to buy one nice wallet from The Wallet Shop for him as a gift to say its from my whole FAMILY (But mom, you didn't give me the green to buy it :D)

I hope there's internet there.

2009-11-19T02:31:00.000-08:00

Annoyed today.

And I found a really (Y) piano cover of GUREN (紅蓮) by the GazettE!

its darn amazing.

2009-11-18T02:07:00.000-08:00

Had a usual day at school today.
Had both English and Maths test. Lost hope in Math. I had tons of really silly careless mistakes.
Anyways, after school went to Tiong Baru Plaza to meet Cheryl's counselor.

My computer just hanged after typing this halfway

Had a little personality test and the results is really true.

I'm rather the supportive type instead of the inspiring type. I always keep quiet and keep my opinions to myself.

And the horrible thing is I work best under stress.
T_T Does it mean that my parents have to stress me out in order for me to get good marks? :o
The bad side of me is that I always tend to run away when problems persists, and keeping my opinions to myself.

Even Cheryl and Wencong agreed too. ): After her counselor left, we joked around and I left to meet Jassie, Huiyan and Peiyi.

2009-11-16T03:24:00.000-08:00

GONE.
YUI's guitar pick keychain gone. ):

IT'S DARN EMBARRASSING TODAY.
Really suey at Bugis. =_=

I really need to concentrate on whatever I'm doing.

2009-11-14T21:16:00.000-08:00

I WANT THIS YUI GUITAR PICK!

http://page5.auctions.yahoo.co.jp/jp/auction/e97717243

But oh lord they don't accept any local bank transfers here. Sigh.

2009-11-14T04:02:00.000-08:00

13 Nov:

Brother's birthday. Went for movie with Cheryl and Wencong. Watched 2012. I love the movie. After that slacked around at Plaza Sing, then went to meet Hui Yan, Jassie and Pei Yi for the BBQ.

Met Hui Yan at Dhoby Ghaut station and I swear Hui Yan has to stop asking people to listen to the indian song. She keep singing, no - chanting, "Oh Mangala mangala mangala boom!" Sent her some korean songs, and then waited for jassie and pei yi to arrive.

After those slowpokes have arrived, we went to Lorong Chuan for Hui Yan's cell group BBQ. Had a short games session and then worshiping session. Then lastly, for the BBQ.

Met some really cool people in her cg. Really interesting. Maybe I'll attend her cg next week.

Went home at midnight.

I think I'm getting sick. I suddenly lost my appetite these days, and eating lesser since Friday, and no matter how much I slept, it isn't enough.
My mood went down too, and my paranoid thoughts are coming out again.
What has happened to me?!

Felt better after listening to YUI's Laugh away and I'll Be.

---------------
Laugh Away - YUI lyrics

Miagetara hikoukigumo ashita e to kieta
Boku wa soredemo zutto jitensha wo kogitsuzuketa

[As I looked up, the streak of clouds (left behind in the trail of planes) disappeared to tomorrow
Even then, I continued to paddle on my bicycle]

Noborisaka kake agaru ano sora no mukou
Itsuka oikoseru you na sonna ki ga shiteiru kara

[Yeah, climbing up the upslope, to the sky on the other side
Because I felt I could overcome that some day]

Haguresou na get away get away
Jounetsu wo get away get away
Nogasanai you ni te wo nobashite

[As if losing my way, get away get away
Don't lose your passion
(Get away Get away)
Stretch out your arms]

Chippoke na koto ni nayanjatte
Tonikaku kimi ni aitakunatta yeah

[Worrying about the trivial things
Suddenly I felt like seeing you]

Umaretate no haru no nioi ni
Sakihokoru sakura no hanabira
Itsudatte makenai you ni nee

[The smell of fresh spring
The petals of the blossoming sakura
I will never lose to it.]

Sou waratte sotto waratte laugh away
Sou waratte itsumo waratte

[Yes laugh, laugh away
Yes laugh, keep laughing]

Oka no ue iki wo kirashi machi wo mioroshita
Tabun kimi no uchi no yane kurai wa mieru hazu

[On top of the hill, I took a deep breath and looked down
I probably could only see the roof of your house]

Mado no sotto umi ga sugu da yo nante hanashiteta
Dakara ano basho watari onaji ma kanjiteiru

[And you said the sea is just outside the windows
At that place, I could feel the same presence]

Afuresou na get away get away
Jounetsu wo get away get away
Kobosanai you ni te wo nobashite

[The overflowing (Get away Get away)
Don't spill your (overflowing) passion (Get away Get away)
Stretch out your arms]

Chippoke na koto ni nayanjatte
Tonikaku kimi ni aitakunatta yeah

[Worrying about the trivial things
Suddenly, I felt like seeing you]

Me no mae ni hirogaru keshiki wo
Wasuretewa ikenai ki ga shita
Itsudatte makenai you ni

[The scenery right in front of my eyes
I felt I mustn't forget it.
I will never lose to it.]

Never mind never mind ochikondara
Yeah yeah koko ni kite kaze ni fukaretai

[When I feel depressed and down, yeah yeah
I want to come here, and be blown by the wind]

Chiisa na egao ga mitai kara
Boku datte tsuyoku nareru no sa yeah

[I want to see your little smile
I, too, can become stronger]

Umaretate no haru no nioi ni
Sakihokoru sakura no hanabira
Itsudatte makenai you ni nee

[The smell of the fresh Spring
The petals of the blossoming sakura
I will never lose to it]

Sou waratte itsumo waratte

[Yes, laugh. Keep laughing away.]

2009-11-10T02:24:00.000-08:00

Wtf there's this unknown number who kept calling my handphone and hanged up after a missed call.
God, and he/she sms me to go down to beach rd.

Super tired these days. Super disappointed in my science test. I studied very hard for it and only to find that I got a 63 percent. Sigh. Quite good already.

AND GAZETTE. OMG. HOT. LOL.
RUKI~

and lastly YUI. I really like her songs.

YUI - again

ホゼマヌエル | MySpace Video

I need more brain cells

2009-11-07T07:31:00.001-08:00

I'm really darn worried now.
Tearies got into a car accident and currently unconscious.
He called me just now and all I hear is the hospital beep beep sound.

I don't know what to do.
Help.

He's fine already, thank God.
IT'S MY TEST TOMORROW. OH DEAR LORD HELP ME ABSORB ALL
THOSE SCIENTIFIC EQUATIONS

Keith owes me 60m

2009-11-07T01:34:00.001-08:00

New blogskin. The previous one seems so girly after staring at it for 5 minutes just now.
Read up about some horror and paranormal reports in SGClub just now and I'm really spooked out now.
I don't even dare to go to the toilet myself. :S

To make it worst, my brother has this tendency to surprise me whenever I'm engrossed on something. Like, BOO.

And I someone still hasn't return their debt after coming me for money last month. I might increase the interest, mind you. :D

I decided to show one of my photoshop works every blog entry.
So here's one now:

I feel so disappointed after knowing that DBSK may split up after this whole court issue. They're really a talented band. No other bands can even compare to them. What's gonna happen after that split? Only left Yunho and Changmin?

2009-11-04T04:15:00.000-08:00

Went out with Cheryl, Jasmine and Hui Jing today.
Originally I planned to go out with Cheryl only, but in the end Hui Jing tagged along too. :D
Stayed back for math remedial with the class, then rushed to Bugis to meet Cheryl and Hui Jing. They're really alike in character. LOL.

Went to Mos Burger to eat my lunch, then Jasmine joined us. Went to Muji to buy my pens, then went to Everlast to buy my super hot red shoe. LOL. 49.90. Money fly away.

Went to Kinokuniya and slacked there. After that went to the stationary shop to buy my pen again. LOL. After that went to cold storage and bought my water, then went home.

I think this trip is wasted again. Not many shuai ge at Bugis today.
BUT LOTS OF SUPER SUPER SUPER SHUAI JAPANESE GUYS CAN.

*DROOL*

2009-11-01T05:50:00.000-08:00

Hello!
Sorry for the not posting regularly. Went out to Vivo today with my family.
Went to fool around with handphones at the Samsung Shop, then went to Hans to have dinner.
Took us around 1 hour to find one suitable restaurant to eat. =_=

Nothing much happened these days.
Except Cassandra left...
Sigh, really missed her and her hilarious jokes. I hope she will come back next year.
Everyone misses her. ):

2009-10-23T06:18:00.000-07:00

A quick blog update before I go to genting later. :D
Went out with Cindy, Jia Yi and Ka Lin to China Town today.
We ate a seriously big big dim sum buffet meal.

Ka Lin and me reached to China town first, and we waited there for Cindy.
Cindy and Jiayi took a long time, so we went into the restaurant first.
We ordered very little food.
But until Cindy came in, oh dear. She ordered TONS of food, that she couldn't eat them all.

Jia Yi and Cindy is really darn hilarious jokers. Especially Jia Yi.
Cam whored with them today, (they are a bunch of cam-whore addicts).
Due to the time limit I cant upload the pictures today.
Maybe after my trip to genting, which I'll arrive to singapore on tuesday.

Going out with them isn't bad as I thought. No problematic issues. They're really open-minded!

2009-10-22T01:20:00.000-07:00

Went to lan again to play L4D with Cheryl again. LOL. We managed to complete the whole campaign in just less than 1 hour. Around 50 minutes in fact.
I'm going to try other maps again next week~

School today was funny.
We were asking Mr Chin about his wife, him and why he doesn't like biology. He then said,

"I don't teach biology to my wife, I DO it.

Epic form teacher I have right! LOL. The whole class were like laughing really hard. Then mervyn asked him, what style? 69? Then the rest of the stuff he said I've forgotten it.

Tomorrow is the day I'll be going to Genting. Bored. Kinda not looking forward to it since I'll be traveling at midnight. I heard some dirty rumors at Genting.
Tomorrow going for dim sum buffet with Kalin, Cindy and Jia Yi~

2009-10-21T02:54:00.000-07:00

I went to lan shop after school today with Cheryl(TYLC).
And woot we had a darn great fun with L4D. It's my first time playing it today, and I got so addicted that I couldn't stop playing it for 2 hours straight.
I managed to get to the last stage but we couldn't complete it. Because there are too many zombies to handle. Maybe if Wen Cong comes to help us we can complete in just 30 minutes. :D

Today something really really big happened in class.
Idk what's wrong with Eng Han, he got angry, and used a fire extinguisher and hit on wen cong's head 3 times. Oh lord.
Luckily mervyn stopped him in time.
Seriously, matters that solved with violence isn't nice. I think he's seriously going to be expelled.

Why can't he just treasure his parent's hard earned money?

2009-10-20T05:55:00.000-07:00

I did my part, now it's up to you.
I lowered down my pride to patch back.

I'm glad that there are tons of people giving me advices, and telling me where I was wrong so that I can change.

Thanks Nurul, Cheryl(TYLC) and Cheryl(GMSS) for your advices.
I really appreciate it.

You just had to rake up the past. NO matter what.

2009-10-20T02:19:00.000-07:00

LOL, it's funny how it ends up like this.
You keep finding faults with different people, one by one.
I knew one day you're going to find some faults with me. Soon.

When are you going to tell me directly what's my faults are?
I asked you clearly whether did I do anything wrong last night.
You said no.
Then one day you said I'm worst then C. Come on.
Why are you even treating C like this anyway?
Apparently you're still having the grudge against her until now. If not you wouldn't say this.

At first it was C, K, N and now S.
Luckily K and N didn't mind. But I do.

When are you going to "cool down"?

2009-10-19T04:17:00.001-07:00

Admiring someone from afar is just plain weird and difficult feeling for me.
I realized in the first place I shouldn't have confirmed my feelings without thinking seriously.
Right now, I think admiring afar is the best thing to do.

I'm just freaking damn immature.
Accepting the fact is all I can do now. But I'm not going to be depressed over this,

I'm just 15 years old, for god's sake.

2009-10-18T06:00:00.000-07:00

My new glasses! Although it's plain, but I love it a lot. LOL.
But it's not much difference between my previous glasses. This just cost me 68 bucks. :D
Anyways, went to Jurong Point today. Bought my glasses, then went to Fish and Co to have dinner with my family.

Here's peektures~

My dad.

2009-10-17T08:29:00.000-07:00

How's my siggie? This took me 1 hour to complete in photoshop.
Somehow it looks weird to me.

2009-10-17T02:24:00.000-07:00

Ok, I'm just being too paranoid.
I had a good talk with Jasmine last night on the phone, and she told me a lot of facts about myself.
I need to love myself before I want people to love me.

Being paranoid and quiet isn't going to help much.
I need to change.

Ryan, you know I treat you as a very close friend. I basically tell you what's going on my life. Everything. You know I'm busy. I'm really sorry that I don't have enough time to spend with you. I'll try to make time for you. And I should stop fretting over minor issues. Plus, MIGRATE TO SINGAPORE SO THAT I CAN MEET YOU. HAHA. Hope you're fine over there in Israel.

2009-10-16T02:05:00.000-07:00

Somehow, I feel like I'm non-existent in class.
Maybe I just don't blend in. (?)
I'm already trying my best to chat more trying not to be my usual shy, quiet self.

Conclusion:

Non-existent = Me

Did I do something wrong in class?
I don't remember I offend someone or anything.
Sigh, now I regretted leaving my previous school. Omg if this continues on, I think I'm just another Maria clone. -_-

Oh dear, Jasmine. What has happened to you?! Why are you being such a DBSK fanatic? I'd rather you be Gazette or YUI fan. D:
I keep thinking of him for the whole day. Oh dear. KKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

2009-10-15T04:26:00.000-07:00

It's been a long time since this feeling inside me rekindled..
It's been 2 years. (I think)

Although I know I have absolutely no chance, but I'm glad that I'm able to have this feeling again. I thought I'm weird, to have no admiration towards the opposite sex(I almost thought I'm les. LOL)
I realized that these things takes time, it can't be rushed.

I told Jasmine how I feel, and she knew it long ago before I knew how I myself knew this feeling. I think she can read my feelings like she's reading an open book. @_@

Anyways, today I went out with Jasmine, Nurul, Kelvin and Glynn. I rushed to Tampines to meet them. Went to Seoul Garden and eat. We had a great time there. Although I think we disturbed quite alot of the customers there with our blaring shouts and laughter. :D

After pigging out at seoul garden, we went to toys r us and fooled around, then went to wallet shop to buy my wallet. :D Love it.
Then soon after that we went home.

I know I have no chance, but I am really happy to have just admired you. Twice.
Jasmine said we have the husband and wife look. Omg I'm elated. :D

2009-10-11T04:35:00.000-07:00

What on earth is happening to the teenagers in SG these days?

2009-10-09T06:26:00.000-07:00

Went to school as usual and after school I went to Bugis with Cheryl and Jasmine. Went to watch Cloudy with a chance of meatballs. It was freaking hilarious. Originally, we wanted to watch the movie at 3pm. But the aunty at the cinema counter had to ruin it for us. She went to click on the wrong movie and we ended up watching 500 days of summer. I don't even know what kind of movie is that.

We decided to go back to the counter to change the tickets, and the aunty clicked on the wrong movie again. God. We had to watch the 5.20 slot. The movie was okay, but its not to my taste. There are some hilarious part though. Before the movie, Cheryl went to meet her boyfriend at Illuma.

And we somehow 'ditched' her and went ahead to comic connection to wait for her. LOL. After that, the atmosphere is really really awkward. We gave those couples a private time, then we went ahead to Otaku House.

We went to catch the movie then. We were late for 20 minutes, but who cares.
After the movie, Jasmine and I went to City Hall to buy my GLAY album. I wanted to buy Gazette's album at first, but there aren't any. I wanted to buy YUI's new single, but I have not enough cash and only limited to buy one. ):

I FINALLY BOUGHT MY COPY OF GLAY'S ALBUM!
Here's my album collections~

Click to enlarge.

Glay Album:

And the rest are my album collections. :D

YUI's Summer Song single and My Short Stories Album:

YUI's 'Again' single and Nightmare's The World Ruler Album:

YUI's I love Yesterday Album and her Can't Buy My Love album:

And lastly,

YUI's From Me To You Album:

What's left is YUI "It's all Too Much" single and Gazette's albums!
I have to make a list of albums to buy:

the GazettE:
Stacked Rubbish
Filth In The Beauty -Auditory Impression-
DIM

Nightmare:
Majestical Parade
the Last Show
REM_

YUI:
It's all Too Much

L'arc~En~Ciel:
KISS

I think I'm gonna be broke.

2009-10-08T03:35:00.001-07:00

I *beep* hate my new hairstyle.

2009-10-06T23:38:00.001-07:00

omg happy.
yui and gazette singles are released today. :D
gonna get my fair share of their singles whenever it reaches on HMV in singapore. today was pretty boring.
woke up at 6.45, got ready for school and reached school with cheryl at 8.50am.
school is freaking boring.
not to mention i have to send an essay or composition to miss lim, to see if i have the standards of taking the Os. man..
when home, and on aljunied mrt saw kelvin, yongqin and heng lee.
sayed hi and bye, but that darn yongqin had to add in that i was emo because i dressed all black.
-thumps down-
its my freaking uniform!

can't wait for friday. :D

2009-10-06T04:06:00.000-07:00

Ok, today is just like any other day.
Except for the fact that we trained from

Tiong Bahru > Joo Koon > Aljunied

Trained with Cassandra and Cheryl(TYLC not GMSS). I think it took like around 45 minutes.
Then after that waited for Jasmine then we went to MAC to study.
God, I swear I've been going to MAC for like the second time this week. I have to stop going there.
Anyways, my blog is becoming dead. (It IS dead.)

Pictures~

The human version of cheeeken little.

LOL dumb looking Jasmine trying to strike a pose with my guitar. LOL

My mother and me at a restaurant. Took this photo on Sunday. :D

CHERYL! :D I took it when she aint looking. :D

2009-10-05T02:31:00.000-07:00

Ohmybabe I'm really tired today.
Went to my lessons, and after school I went to shop around Tiong Bahru plaza with Cheryl(from TYLC, not GMSS - sorry I had to emphasize on this no matter what). OMG I found out that we have lots in common.

WE LOVE ARASHI
THIS SHOWS WE HAVE GOOD TASTE OK.

I went to Comic Connection to buy DBSK *cough* hero*cough* for jasmine that huachi, and after that I we went to DVD shop to shop for Cheryl's Hana Yori Dango's DVD. After that we went to Bugis.

OH MY GOD.

FUCKING LOTS OF GOOD LOOKING GUYS THERE. I'M IN HEAVEN.
I WILL SURVIVE~ I WILL SURVIVE~
*cough*

Ok. We went to Bugis Street to buy Cheryl's shirt, and then went to Dorothy Perkins to window shop. After that we went to Kinokuniya to window shop for some books.

Read through Gazette and Fools Mate magazines.
After that we browsed through some other books.
And hor,

When we wanted to go down the escalator from the Kinokuniya there,
*scream*
I saw one super super super super super super super supser super
freaking good looking guy. He wear tank top some more.
Got muscles.
Omg *faint* No words can describe how godly he is.

And on the way back to MRT. We went passs the machine thingy,
Cheryl saw one super hot guy(with freaking white skin) behind her.
he looks like Key from SHINee with his side view.
When I take a look at his front view, ok, not Key.

After that we went home.
(lousy way of ending a blog entry, i know)

2009-10-03T06:47:00.000-07:00

There are times I really hate her, and there's times where I treat her as a very good friend.
But her irritating and annoying nagging attitude really pissed me off. A lot.

She would always nag at me to finish my food, clean up my house etc. Sometimes I can't help but think that she's getting more and more self conscious day by day. It's like, she is only thinking one thing - she, herself and her that is important.

I can't help but have this feeling that she expects us to listen to her, to do what she wants us to do. Come on, my life does not revolve around her. Although she can be good at times, but this side of her really gets on my nerves.

I once regretted being close to her, to the point of being best friends. I didn't notice she had this side of her. It is mild at first, but as the days goes by it became worst. Jasmine couldn't tolerate either.

She wouldn't listen to what people say. The other party would always having a hard time trying to get their message across. Talking to her is like talking to a 4 year old kid. I'd rather talk to my primary 3 cousin than talk to her.

Sometimes I wish she could change her ways. She thought our friendship would break without her, leading her behavior and attitude to become so conceited and self consciousness.

She taught me this fact -
Becoming close to people doesn't mean you have a good friendship.
It takes two hands to clap.
Friendship is about giving in and trust.
However, I gave in to you, but you didn't.
I couldn't help but think I'm your slave.

Congratulations, KL. You are officially the first one who managed to break my tolerance level.

2009-10-01T01:37:00.000-07:00

oh praise the lord for his all mighty justice.
YUI finally has more votes then the manly Wonder Girls.
Omg yes yesy esyes yesyeseyesyesyesyesyesyssssssss. FINALLY.

YUI: 2467 votes
Wonder Girls: 2107 votes.

I thought YUI is going to lose at the end, but it turned out the other way around instead.
Oh bravo!!!!

VOTE FOR YUI ZEH ZEH!
And the sexy kings Arashi won over Super Junior. OMG WOOT.

Arashi: 5107
Super junior: 4702

oh my oh my oh my~~~~
GTG do my homework.

Adieu~