I have to tell myself this over and over again:

Looks aren't everything. Looks aren't everything, looks aren't everything.

Somehow, I really hate this low self esteem of mine. Inside me, I'm always having this thought:
"That girl is prettier than me, she deserves it more."
"I don't deserve this."
"She's more talented."

I guess that's why I'm always at the same stage of my life. Without my friends, I wouldn't have been moving on, completing each stage of obstacle, one by one, slowly.

As I walked down orchard or bugis, I see many girls wearing nice fashionable clothes, and I looked down at myself, only to have a sight of a normal graphical tee, a pair of jeans and a pair of converse sneakers.

If I said I'm not envious of the them, I would be telling myself a lie.
I have this really strong part of me, which I place "Pride" as my top priority. But I always convinced my mind to think otherwise.

I always refresh my mind with the past preaches from various people in my life, which helped me tons.

- Love everyone for who they are
- Endure
- Fuck appearances
- Love the weaknesses
- Love my enemy

I guess, if it wouldn't for the last one, i wouldn't have this peaceful thinking inside of me.
Although loving your enemy might be hard, but we might not know unless we try.
Hating someone is really tiring, why not love them?

Time to refresh my mind, move on and start to love.



I'm tired of hating people, and the things I hate to do. I should start loving them, one by one.
This way, I can live a better life. I won't worry. I won't panic. I won't have doubts. Because I know I believe in Him, whom he can see and guide me through the paths and the future. I trust in Him.