ah, listening to flumpool and YUI songs really makes me feel happy.
the lyrics are really meaningful..

The best was YUI's song, I'll Be lyrics. She really motivated me when I dropped out of school... which I didn't talk to my peers... and stayed in my room, for the whole day, staring out into space and feeling dazed. I don't know what overcame me.

Luckily, my friend introduced me, I'll Be - YUI. He was a fanatic of her. I remembered how absurd I found him in the first place as it was my first time seeing a fanboy.
As I listened to the song, and I began looking up the lyrics and the meaning of the song.
I started to get more motivation after knowing the lyrics of the song...
I don't know how to describe, but I felt a sense of emotion, knowing that I can do it again.
I can start over again, not matter how many times I fall.

Dewa, I'll Be - YUI lyrics -

I’ll be thinking
About you
You’ve decided on your journey right
Together You have my support no matter when

If there ever comes a time when you feel like giving up
Don’t simply coop up in your room

Walk on the streets
Oh Baby Try to find that feeling
Which you felt on this day

Try over and over again “Play You”
Because there ain’t any other choice

I’ll be You just have to
Paint it into your own color
Though there will definitely be uncertainties
Together You have my support no matter when

If there ever comes a time when you feel like you’re losing to loneliness
Listen to the songs that you love

Even if you are
Lost in the crowd
You’ll be able to find it Oh Baby Try

Because a smile will “Play You”
Become your strength

I’ll be thinking
About you
You’ve decided on your journey right
Together You have my support no matter when

The time when you find yourself slowly
Beginning to love someone
The courage to protect that someone
Will grow in you

I’ll be Each time you look back
On those little disappointments definitely
You’ll be able to feel the gentleness
It seems life is not something to be thrown away

I’ll be You just have to
Paint it into your own colour
Though there will definitely be uncertainties
Together You have my support no matter when

I still remember where I'll be was my first YUI song that I listened to!
And I got hooked to it, then I began to slowly support YUI songs after that.


YUI BANZAI!
I hope that I can be like her, composing her own songs and playing the guitar...
Supporting others through her lyrics and the cheerful melody..
And even though I know the decision I made has made me turn away from my original path, but taking the long and difficult path.. I didn't regret it once.
If I didn't choose this path,

I wouldn't have met Cheryl.
I wouldn't have met Bernice,
I wouldn't have found out who my real friends were.
I wouldn't have looked at the world differently from the last time.
I wouldn't have become more independent.
I wouldn't have experienced things that normal school pupils wouldn't have experienced.
I wouldn't have become more closer to my parents, especially my dad.

Sometimes, i always dream that after i get married, having children, i would tell them my life story and what i've experienced. HAHAHAHA. Ok coughs.
I kept looking for a shortcut way to complete my education, and I thought it would be easy and I would get into any school I want, and things would be like what I've imagined.
but after what i experienced, I felt like this sentence slapped me hard:

Life doesn't go your way, life is unfair.