Updating my blog for Jassie. Kufufufufu.

HOLY FUGZXZ. 

Goddamit, somehow, my msn messenger can't sign in. 

I HAVE ENOUGH OF YOUR MOTHER FUCKING LECTURES YOU MOTHER

FUCKING BASTARD.

Holy shitzx, DBSK have less nice songs in the recent albums, except MIROTIC.
Ahh never mind. Arashi is the best~ LOL. So far I found the song TAXI nicest in
the album. -_-

Anyways, SO BORED LA. I TRIED MUGGING SCIENCE TODAY.
And I found out that I cant go for science exam, because it has practical.
I quitted school, so practical exam is impossible for me...
Super dissappointed at that..

So now taking 4 subjects.. I'm not sure whether they have the
minimum subjects rule. They didn't state anything in the website.

Confidence level: 10 percento.

THIS IS FUCKING IMPOSSIBLE. I'VE SET MY GOALS TO HIGH.

I GIVE UP. ITS NOT POSSIBLE.

I'LL JUST BE A USELESS PERSON IN MY WHOLE LIFE.

Sigh, last night I recieved a shocking news from my mother.
She decided to let me take the O level examinations as a private candidate.
I was okay with it, but I'm worried that I can't catch up.

As you see, I left last year, and I wasted 9 months, without studying.
I'll be testing 5 subjects in the examination...

English
Maths
Combined - Chem+Phys
History
Chinese B+ AND Chinese

I'm worried that I can't catch up with all of the subjects..
I've forgotten all of the basics and I have to start from secondary 1 standards.
Will I be able to finish? I decided to offically start mugging like a crazy person
tomorrow.

In the late afternoon I will be going to popular with my mom... Buy my
assessment books and necessary textbooks..
I'm really scared, that I won't be able to pass, or I'll not be able to
mug the required topics for the exam...

I don't want to experience failure... Sigh.
Hope with Keith's ah gong help and my tuition teacher, I will be able to
pass...
I don't understand my parents. Some online people have good intentions,
while some don't. Can't they see that I'm experienced enough to handle
my relationships online?

Keith is a really good friend and he helps me through the period where I
left school. Or rather, quit school.
He always try to knock some sense into me during that time..
Even though he's just an online friend.. Even until now,
he's still trying to persuade me into going back to a normal school...
But I didn't want to.. He accepted my decision, and even helped me with it.
He even provided me with tons information about the O levels,
since he took it last year... He will even teach me through online,
when I have problems with my studies..

So don't worry about me meeting him, I will never meet anyone,
through online.

Beauty School option is out. My mom was afraid that it is a scam.
But it's recognized by the government, isn't it? But well, I've already thrown
that option away. The only option for me now is to go for the O levels, as
a private candidate.

I know people will look down on me, but it's their problem, not mine.
It's my life, not theirs. Why should I let them control my future?
As long I the job is decent, and I can provide for myself, or probably my family, it's fine.
I don't care how low the pay is.

I'm just sick and tired of people criticizing me how low this is.
Can't they just bother their own business? I don't need their
criticisms or their complaints.

Just stick to your own shoes, fuggers.

Many thanks;

Jasmine:
I sincerely thank you for all the help, concerns and the tears you've shed for me.
You truly cares for your friends, I know it. Even though we are not close like
before, I still hope we can maintain like the way we are now..

Cheryl:
Thank you for your humor and help. You've always cheered me up, whenever
I'm down.. Stay cute ar!

My beloved SuperMushroom, Jassie!:
I really thank you from the bottom of my heart. I made the correct
decision talking to you on msn, that day, which started us being closer
as friends. Move on, Edward isn't the only guy in the world. :)
I loved those times when we went out together. You always joke,
*cough* about that mushroom hairstyle yellow shirt guy *cough*,
although I think we're pretty rude to him, but I still can't hold in my
laughter. HAHAHA. Check out my new hubby - Matsuyama Kenichi!
LOL. Ohmygee he's hot can. LMAO.
Obviously my fangirl mode has relapse again.

Drake:
Even though we quarreled a few weeks ago, and still not talked to each other,
I hope you're reading this. I've never experienced what you've experienced before,
so I don't understand what you're feeling. Please understand. I'm trying to give
you advices from what I think is correct. Don't look so down anymore.
The world isn't that horrible. :)

And lastly, Keith old man:
I dont know whether you bothered to come to my blog to read this. -_-
However, I still want to type this out because I have too much time in my
hands. You rock la! Even though you look young, but you're old mentally. LOL.
Still haven't jio until Wuyue, huh. -_- Typical of you. LOL. Ok, I shall stop
suan-ing you now.
Thanks for all the sense you've knocked into my head last night.
And thank you for all those help you've given me. Stop being so dull. -_-
Add some colors into your personality, will ya?!
YUI YOSHIOKA > LEE JOO YEON
She's 1000x more cuter than her!

FANBOY! :D

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That's all for those mushy declarations. :D
Why am I typing like I'm dying, man. ._.
Suddenly I feel so touchy. LOL.

OMFG, GAZETTE NEW SINGLE IS OUT:

DISTRESS AND COMA

OMGOMGOMG! Its earlier than I've expected! Omg!! The PV is nice too!

RUKI HAS GOTTEN HOTTER! *GASP*

I swear I redownload an uninstaled Safari a thousand times already.
I just can't decide whether to use Safari web browser or not, I love
their graphics, because its smoothing to the eye, but slow. Firefox

I know I don't have a good future ahead of me okay.

Omg, I swear, that somethings wrong with my internet. 

Just came back from Bugis with Jasmine, Cindy, Cheryl, Gladys and lastly HuiJing.
We had great fun, although I do feel left out at times.

Well, waited for the dearest Gladys, Jasmine and Hui Jing to arrive at Aljunied MRT.
Chatted with senior while waiting.
Finally 3 of them arrived. Trained down to Bugis.

After arriving Bugis, went to eat at Mos Burger.
Cheryl and Hui Jing didnt want to eat at Mos. So they went to eat food court while we the rest ate Mos Burger.
After that all slacked at Mos Burger, joking around.

After Mos Burger we decided to shop around, looked for accessories,
then went to slacked at the cinema top floor.
We played Truth and Dare.
Omg, Im' so embarrassed!
I chose dare, and they asked me to go one around the cinema, waving and shouting,
Hello! I'm shentel and I like *BEEP*
Omg, I swear I can see many peepos looking at me.
LOL.

Then Hui JIng, Cindy, Cheryl and Jasmine all tio dare.
I remembered Cheryl kana alot of times. LOL.
Super funny, don't quite remember all the details.
But I remembered one quite clearly. Cindy's dare.
LOL.

We dared her to go down to the 2nd floor and say,
"Hello, can I have this dance?" to this old man.
LOL. She took her handphone and pretended to talk to it.
Then she said those words infront of the old man and run back towards us.
LOL, n1 Cindy.

After slacking around at the cinema, a security guard chased us away.
Probably getting too noisy.

We went to take neoprints. Forced Gladys to take with us.
LOL, yesyes I know, 15 still take neo. LOL.
anyways, we took and we look super retarded.
And somehow, our complexion looks so freaking pure in the photos.
Ah, never mind.

Leaving the cinema, we went to shop at Gramophone.

went back to Bugis mrt station.
Omg, on the way, me and huijing go rate guys. ~_~
I swear I saw alot of hot guys that is my type ok. *SCREAMS*
LOL. OMGOMGOMG.

GOT ALOT OF *COUGH*JAPANESEGUYS*COUGH*!
Sms-ed with ah gong along the way home.

Lonely sia, Jassie have band camp.
No one to bombard me with sms-es anymore. ):

Wow, my eyes practically gone blinded after serious playing of DJ Max. -.-
I'm seeing blurry images even I'm wearing spects.
I really gotta stop playing it. Its getting worst and worst.

And I'm fucking dizzy. Argh. Must stop playing...
Waiting for Final Fantasy: Dissia USA version to come out.
Downloading DJ Max soundtracks.

Sigh, cheer up Supermushroom. Move on, this is only a obstacle. Overcome this and you'll be stronger. :)

Sigh.
Today I'm so pissed off.
I can feel that my the evil cells in my body is spreading already. Argh. -.-

I feel like I can't control my temper, and I give half-hearted replies to msn.
Must be pigbo's fault.
Or something like that.

This is so miserable. I feel so irritated and pissed.
I shouldn't have gone out with her.
Don't go saying, "There! I told ya so!" please.
Not gonna put the exact details of what I did today.

Went out with Jassie, Pei Yi, Cheryl, Jasmine and lastly Jenny.
Cheryl went out with us to Bugis. She left us to meet her cousin at around 12.
After Cheryl left us we trained down to Orchard.
Made a fool of ourselves inside the MRT. Seriously embarrassing.

Ate at KFC. Dabao-ed 2 pcs chicken for Jasmine. Since we have some leftovers.
Lol. Then we exited Takashimaya. We wanted to enter Paragon, but they didn't allow food and drinks there.
I pleaded, or practically begged with Jassie, to help us put the KFC box into Jenny's bag.
Since she brought a big bag which have enough space to contain the box.
But Idk for what silly reasons, she didnt want to help us.

Luckily Pei Yi agreed to help us, but her bag is small. So we had to take out her book, and put the box inside. Gawd.
Then we went inside Paragon. Walao, all the rich people there. The stores are so grand!
Exited Paragon.

Trained to Tampines. Went to Starbucks. Bought Ice Mocha without whip cream. While waiting for Jasmine, we went to arcade. Played stacker. Finally Jasmine came.
We went to the store to fix her ipod.

We made a fool of ourselves there again and was asked to lower our volumes.
Embarrassed.
Trained back to aljunied.
Cut my hair.
Went back home.


What a wonderful day, huh.

WOOO. I HAVE A NICE DAY SLEEPING!
Omg, I got a weird dream today can.

I dream that I was chased around by 3 BIG worms. OMG.
They are so rubbery and.. Argh, slimly.
I dream that they chased me around the living room of my house.
Chase chase around the sofa. I was tired, so I took a seat on the sofa.
The worm is climbing on the back of the sofa and it's approaching near me.
Gah, after that I woke up by Jenny's sms. ._.

Lucky I didn't put my phone to slient mode. LOL.
Jassie told me that HE replied back to her le. CONGRATS JASSIE.
See, I said patience is a virtue right. :D

Omg, what am I talking about. D:

God the terrified dream. D:

I tried the personality quiz. Its completely true man.. @_@

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.


{/.
Omg, it describes me.. AHADFASDF.

Ong Shen Tel has officially become a NEET.
She stayed at home for weeks without going out.
She's really annoyed by a msn friend of hers, who always barges into her affairs, which doesn't concern him/her.

She's given up on her life, and decided to become a lifeless zombie.
Please, save her before it's too late.

Everything is so facking screwed up.
Seriously. I thought life was easy.
Apparently it doesn't go the way I want.
Sigh.

Downloading jap variety videos right now. Super addicted. So hilarious okay! :D
And I'm pondering about how to tell my parents about the school thingy.
Of course, my mom is not supportive of it. Sigh. I'm just useless.

Sigh. I don't know why and how I've become like this. Maybe it's just what I deserve?
I feel like a super baka. Having to make all those silly mistakes in the past.
When will I grow up? Be matured? Be able to think for myself?

Soon, I think, I'm going to become a NEET. Just doing the same daily things everyday seriously bores my life out. I'm like having no social life ok. -.- Except for chatting like a utter insane girl in msn with my msn peepos.

Learning my mistakes isn't enough. I have to change it.
Sigh... When will this insanity end? HAR. WHEN?!

AND WHEN WILL MY FANGIRL-ING MODE STOP? I have enough of this!
ADFJ;SFDF

Warai. Warai. warai.
for now i know i cant smile properly anymore.
everything is just feiku.

the future has turned grotesque.

Sigh, life these days are boring. Nothing to do. Nothing special happened.
Time passes by so fast. At first its Monday, now, Friday. I know then noticed this.

I think I have no life. @_@
This is annoying. Argh.

Woot. Today went to meet my counseller.
Okay, everything was fine. The same old talk about my future, bla bla bla.
After that we went to check out the new school in clark quay.
End up, so suey, my ez-link card went out of money and I had to use coins. Sigh.
Luckily, I have 1 dollar coin inside my wallet. So heng. Thank Lord.

I trying to type fast now without any mistakes. So hard. -_- I realised I was typing fast with so many typos in msn.
Needa change. Lol. My friends have to keep guessing what am I typing. @_@
Sigh, someone help me.
I want to find my source of motivation. But somehow, I can't find it.
I don't want to go through all that like a zombie without feelings.
Please, someone, be my motivation.

I can't see my future anymore. Somehow, it begins to look so blurry, so dark.
The source of my motivation is somehow disappearing.
The future is so bleak.
The only choice is being forced to go through all that - like a zombie.
Or trying hard. That's the only way.


Aww, I'm being so emotional today.

My mind is in a confusion now. I really don't know whether I should go into Immanuel Beauty School.. The fees is 3.5k, for the whole course and I'm applicable for the course. But I think I have to wait till my birthday is up then I can sign up.

Should I go? The whole course lasts for 1 years. And I'll get a diploma in the end of the course(I think).

Should I go?!

Watch this baby! Omg, this year of American Idol super nice.
Got Adam Lambert. He rocks. I love this video. HAHAHA.



Satisfaction - Adam Lambert
I got hooked to the song after I first listened to it! WOOOT!

*BEEP* it la. Today so suey. My slippers, that I bought them from Genting, LOST. Lost, yes, you heard it right. LOST, because I lent it to my friend.

You said your flats are hurting the back of your feet. So I lent you. That's the only slipper I have, no choice, but to lend you. Then I reminded you to return me, alot of times.You just nodded your head in reply. After a few weeks, I asked Jassie to ask you to return my slippers. Jassie replied me that you lost them. Wtf.

I can't help but to have second thoughts about your excuse. Your expression that day when you're wearing those slippers looked like you liked those slippers. (maybe it's just me)
I began to worried that you wouldn't return me. But I brushed those thoughts aside that day and I wanted to trust you that you would return me.

Never did I expect that my worries would come true. Now what. Slippers from genting gone.
Do I have to go back all the way to Genting just to get those slippers? -_- WTF.

Omg and its so bloody nice la the slippers.. Damn disappointing...

Kimi no boku wa tomodachi ja nai yo.

I feel so immature after ranting so angrily about losing a pair of slippers. -_-

Omg, I'm just addicted to this video.



Seriously, so cute! And the song is fcking addicting. LOL. Plus the dance. HAHAHA.
Look at the jailbird Ghoul(the one with the orange suit) LOL he super funny! D:

Love that dance. HAHAHA.