13 Nov:

Brother's birthday. Went for movie with Cheryl and Wencong. Watched 2012. I love the movie. After that slacked around at Plaza Sing, then went to meet Hui Yan, Jassie and Pei Yi for the BBQ.

Met Hui Yan at Dhoby Ghaut station and I swear Hui Yan has to stop asking people to listen to the indian song. She keep singing, no - chanting, "Oh Mangala mangala mangala boom!" Sent her some korean songs, and then waited for jassie and pei yi to arrive.

After those slowpokes have arrived, we went to Lorong Chuan for Hui Yan's cell group BBQ. Had a short games session and then worshiping session. Then lastly, for the BBQ.

Met some really cool people in her cg. Really interesting. Maybe I'll attend her cg next week.

Went home at midnight.

I think I'm getting sick. I suddenly lost my appetite these days, and eating lesser since Friday, and no matter how much I slept, it isn't enough.
My mood went down too, and my paranoid thoughts are coming out again.
What has happened to me?!

Felt better after listening to YUI's Laugh away and I'll Be.

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Laugh Away - YUI lyrics

Miagetara hikoukigumo ashita e to kieta
Boku wa soredemo zutto jitensha wo kogitsuzuketa

[As I looked up, the streak of clouds (left behind in the trail of planes) disappeared to tomorrow
Even then, I continued to paddle on my bicycle]

Noborisaka kake agaru ano sora no mukou
Itsuka oikoseru you na sonna ki ga shiteiru kara

[Yeah, climbing up the upslope, to the sky on the other side
Because I felt I could overcome that some day]

Haguresou na get away get away
Jounetsu wo get away get away
Nogasanai you ni te wo nobashite

[As if losing my way, get away get away
Don't lose your passion
(Get away Get away)
Stretch out your arms]

Chippoke na koto ni nayanjatte
Tonikaku kimi ni aitakunatta yeah

[Worrying about the trivial things
Suddenly I felt like seeing you]

Umaretate no haru no nioi ni
Sakihokoru sakura no hanabira
Itsudatte makenai you ni nee

[The smell of fresh spring
The petals of the blossoming sakura
I will never lose to it.]

Sou waratte sotto waratte laugh away
Sou waratte itsumo waratte

[Yes laugh, laugh away
Yes laugh, keep laughing]

Oka no ue iki wo kirashi machi wo mioroshita
Tabun kimi no uchi no yane kurai wa mieru hazu

[On top of the hill, I took a deep breath and looked down
I probably could only see the roof of your house]

Mado no sotto umi ga sugu da yo nante hanashiteta
Dakara ano basho watari onaji ma kanjiteiru

[And you said the sea is just outside the windows
At that place, I could feel the same presence]

Afuresou na get away get away
Jounetsu wo get away get away
Kobosanai you ni te wo nobashite

[The overflowing (Get away Get away)
Don't spill your (overflowing) passion (Get away Get away)
Stretch out your arms]

Chippoke na koto ni nayanjatte
Tonikaku kimi ni aitakunatta yeah

[Worrying about the trivial things
Suddenly, I felt like seeing you]

Me no mae ni hirogaru keshiki wo
Wasuretewa ikenai ki ga shita
Itsudatte makenai you ni

[The scenery right in front of my eyes
I felt I mustn't forget it.
I will never lose to it.]

Never mind never mind ochikondara
Yeah yeah koko ni kite kaze ni fukaretai

[When I feel depressed and down, yeah yeah
I want to come here, and be blown by the wind]

Chiisa na egao ga mitai kara
Boku datte tsuyoku nareru no sa yeah

[I want to see your little smile
I, too, can become stronger]

Umaretate no haru no nioi ni
Sakihokoru sakura no hanabira
Itsudatte makenai you ni nee

[The smell of the fresh Spring
The petals of the blossoming sakura
I will never lose to it]

Sou waratte itsumo waratte

[Yes, laugh. Keep laughing away.]