Gooooood afternoon, people!




Ah. it has been cold these days even though the sun is shining brightly, especially at night.
I went out with Cheryl yesterday! We went to Bugis to catch a movie, Rapunzel (I swear I loved the horse's facial expressions) and went to eat Ebi Shoutengai (I think i misspelled the name of the restaurant). The food there is great and affordable, however they give pretty large portion.

And cheryl has a hard time chewing her meat.
Before the movie, we went to buy Coffee bean~ I was mesmerized by the male cashier. HAHA!
As usual, Cheryl was too infatuated with her Ryan and thus didn't notice the guy. :(


I ended up buying Rakion cash again. Argh. But hopefully I'll get good items in tomorrow's event.

AND IM REALLY HAPPY! I BOUGHT YUI'S RAIN SINGLE YESTERDAY. :)

Working life is really stressful, constantly worrying about making mistakes, arriving on time, doing it correctly, and stuff.
Hopefully I won't make any mistakes tomorrow. Wish me luck!

I realized my jokes are so freaking sick. LOL.
-cough-

I was enjoying myself on Twitter, spamming the trend #theGazettE and #HBDKaitheGazettE.
Yeah~ I hope Kai loves our birthday present sent to him from me, Grace and Jean!



Oh lala~

Just a fan.

Just a fan.

Just a fan.

Just a fan.

Just nice I'm listening to 'Crying Rain - Girugamesh' LOLOLOL.
It's like my song list knows what I'm feeling, and plays the song. LOLOLOL. Ok...... so later....

Ah, that's why I hate having obsessed and this feeling of possessive-ness over groups which I like their looks more and not their songs. LuckyI tried my best to stop this obsession, if not the amount of depression I feel know is a thousand times more.

Luckily, I don't like GazettE that way. As I imagine them having a wife and girlfriend now, I truly felt happy for them, as I know they'll experience more emotions and compose them into a song which all of us fans can enjoy.

I feel like, God is trying to lead me to the correct way, and try to warn me about the bad incidents that is going to happen ahead, by preventing me and 'telling' me to stop.

Like how I was obsessed with boy group bands the last time. Suddenly, I have this urge to stop. I'm so glad that it happened.

All I know that I'm always first and Him and he'll always love me, that's all I need to know.


Thank you, Lord.

4 months, babe! To my MacBook! Oh yes! If the job is good most probably im
Continuing with the job.

I cant wait to start and end it quickly, so that I can earn the income for my new precious macbook! If I managed to get one MacBook, I'm gonna carress it everyday and molest it. LOLOLOL

So far I've been managing well with the obsession! Didn't went to check the news updates! Although sometimes I was tempted to check, and with Peiyi spazzing to me about SHINee stuff, it's hard
To control. Luckily I kept thinking about my れいた and my dearest ルキ..

I was mesmerized by this actor, named しょうご さかもと。 he's only 1 year older than me! He's really cute and innocent type. Oh my.. Feel like pinching his cheeks!

You guys should watch hammer session drama. It makes you think back about your daily life principles. It made me reflect on human morals. And what wrong I used to do the last time.

Oh I can't wait~ my MacBook! Hehehehehe.

when you messaged in fb, I thought you wanted to ask me something important.
And WTF, "please help me expand my bakery in baking life?!"

I NEARLY FAINTED"

Its hard, but I'm going to persevere.
The temptation is killing me.

Somehow these days I don't have the appetite to eat anymore. My mom even bought KFC back home for lunch, the more I stared at it the more I didn't want to eat it.
Is my body getting sick?

My mood was always below average. I didn't quite feel happy or elated. The only thing that keeps me going is listening to YUI and BUMP OF CHICKEN songs.

I realized, Kpop fans' jealous is a real, real, scary thing. They have this mindset where the band is only existed for them, and them alone. (For some hardcore ones)
For some fans they are real friendly, but they abandons all promises to other fans when it comes to the real deal, like meeting the idols face-to-face.

This is such a scary scene. In the past, when I was indulging in this experiences, I feel that most of the time I have abandoned my friends and families. I was always stalking information about them online and watching their videos.

The addiction to go without all those its hard. During the addiction times I felt like I'm on drugs. That I can't go without doing those things everyday.

And it causes me to daydream about meeting the idols in real life, and things like that.
I realized I was close to being a mental person, that my whole life was consisted of them and only them. I was in the unhealthy range.

I decided to stop this obsession and craze. It's killing me.
So bye, I'M LEAVING THE KPOP FANDOM.

Again. Quarrel. Nothing comes out good in terms of money.


I'm on my own.

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I will not fall prey to greed. Suddenly this thought was implanted in my head:

"I'm greedy. It's time to stop. Be appreciative with what you have."
And I felt touched.

Is it the power of God?

Will not fall into temptation and obsession.